HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

Hopefully I could be better than before!
there are so many wishes for this new year, 2011 :
I want 2 always remember Allah <3
I want 2 make my parents and my family happy
I can write on jurnalism, as I taking communication
I want all my wishes come true
I want 2 go to Riyadh
I want 2 eat shawarma, kabab, and all arabian food
I want 2 go to Korea, Japan and Europe
I keep improving my English 2 be better
I want something new in my life
I want to be better than last year
I want always have motivation
I want 2 khusyu' in my pray

aaaaaaaaaaaa aaand so on :))

*damn, I just realized that in my time's blogspot hasn't 12.00 yet :)) LOOOOLL

I guess not :))

because from the past posted, now I just posted in the same day hahahhahaha xD

oooooooooooooh

this is my last post in this year
well because on next post would be my new post on 1st January 2011, welcome 2011 ! ! !

I can't believe

well time is really goes fast.
as time passed by, now we'll face the year of 2011!!!
I can't believe it, it feels just yesterday was 2001 really T.T
I could remember how I saw the moon, it has a circle surrounded the moon,. that's was beautiful masya Allah :')

bete

maen gamee barbiee hahahahha

alhamdulillah lancaarr

huah kuliah lancar alhamdulillah, n bulan depan adalah UAS, SEMANGAT!MOGA SUKSES, AMIIIN :D
hmm rencana lagi pengen pindah kos, yang lebih deket ma kampus, huhuhu klo ditelaah lelah juga naik turun sebelum naik kendaraan yang harus dinaiki setelah menyeberangi botani T___T

okeoke jalani dulu yang ini, nanti klo ada rezeki yang kos kosong, hayuu mari observasi xD

someday

I believe that someday I'll know the best answer from Allah...
gonna waiting for that time, what time will bring me
I really really wanna the best for this..
uh
confusing, aaaand so on

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I start to used with my task in my lecture, I start to love my lecture..really
I hope gonna be like this till I graduate :)
and after that, I hope I could get a good job and earn soo much money to make my family happy, amiin

now, I'm about to find a new kos.
which it more near my campus, so I shouldn't get up early in the morning, hahahahaha xD
well my kos now which I live in now not far away with my campus but really near with other campus -___-
altough this is a good place, there's free wifi, there's a canteen, but, the problem is just bcause far from campus

hope I'm gonna get the best new kos near campus, amin :D
there are so much my pray ^^v

well I should used with this

I'm not used to get a task to make a report about observation and so on.
i want to used with this task, this is 1st semester hahaa dunno how's next semester, but that's what university's student must do, job, do task :)
well so CHEER UP to meee
I know I can do it, and this is what I want, I really really want to write jurnalism, about something with media
humm specially communication.

all I hope is I used to this task so I could get more more and more knowledge !

a poem?maybe

feel the wind
and
it comes into my heart

deep inside
my heart
I could feel the emptiness

I.......
wanna falling in love

where's that feelings go? :(

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Kenapa semua jadi terasa hambar?
kenapa semua jadi begini?
kenapa rasa bingung, kalut semua campur aduk menjadi satu?

today

day by day, I learned about people though, how they're thinking about something, and how from the different of them, the way they judge what they're thinking about someone
and specially for me, sometimes suddenly I'm ilfeel with someone, and i just try to throw it away and maybe that's just my feeling, suddenly ilfeel without reason, what's wrong with myself?
aaaannnddd I found out hahaaha
ternyata saya adalah orang yang cepat tanggap ya :D
ada temen yang menceritakan aaanndd so on -____________-

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okay, wanna talk about what am I doing while in the class

I love to see my friends activity, specially when the dosen were not in the class, whoow u can imagine they passed and meet each other, talking, singing, playing, etc.
crowded situation, when i'm in my mood, I may smiled to them, I could feel their happiness
whenever I'm not in my mood, I may out from the class, alone, walked through the path and, see nature through the window, feel the wind....
after that, back to the class, check out whether the instruction already back or not hahaha

after the class is over, omg if it at 12-02 pm, got dunno what to do lol
if it over in the afternoon, back to the kost, and take a rest, prepare for the next day

good friend/s

a good friends are who tell to their friend if he/she did wrong, and give her/him a good advice!

happy 13th Anniversary :D

hehehe it's so fast, right? :D
as time passed by, now we're here, started October 2009
till now, November 2010
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okay, back to with what I'm doing now
lately, I felt bored, uh stressed out I guess, after met a small problem and not important I thought, really
she's mature enough I think, but she couldn't face her problem by herself, she asked her friends -____-
and why her friends not give her a good advice?
they're mature enough!not a kid anymore, and not a students of SHM!
DAMN!
hope Allah give them hidayah, amiin :)

well, to be a good person isn't easy
but CHEER UP to do something in a positive way ! :D

miss them

i looked all my photos, specially when i looked at photos of pelepasan dulasmangka :')
what a special moment, looking at my mother n father's, makes me feel I should cheer up, i should get my spirit up for my college, my family, my motivation, and of course, that's all i do because of Allah :)

SEMANGAT! xD

tuntut ilmu, yea, i should have a motivation why i take my college :)
and i should know why ^^

nothin

FEEL EMPTY!

sleepy

fiuh I'm sleepy now
on 7th Nov will be OBSCURA, nyam
time goes so fast...

bombom

now, I just seen a web on kaskus about the students of university who did an operation to a dead body

that's so bad -__-

mumumumu

 muach :*

I miss you
The Fray - Never Say Never

RMNR <3

empty

tonight, I feel so empty...

I don't know am I wanna cry, or mad, or anything...
really empty, it seems I always asked "what's wrong with my heart?"
and I think I know myself, but I couldn't describe it how...
how are u my bf? T__T

we've been passed one year more now

where are you?
I feel so empty...

Astaghfirullah

ya Allah sadarkanlah dia ya Allah, agar tidak berbuat demikian, jauhi dia dari sifat yang zalim

y Allah, aku bener2 g bermaksud untuk berbuat yang macam2, aku kesel sama orang yang bisa2nya berkata demikian, sedangkan aku selalu berfikir untuk tidak berbicara yang membuat orang lain sakit hati, namun sadar kemudian huh


YA ALLAH i wanna feel better please ><
tabahkan aku dalam menghadapi ujian ini ya Allah...

dear my beloved mother and father

I'm very glad to be born in this family, so much thankful to both of you :)

mom, I won't forget what you've said to me, your advice, and also you, father
I LOVE YOU MY PARENTS <3

I'm doing fine here, Allah always take care of me,and also my brother, I know, your pray to Allah.
Allah loves us :)
and I always pray the best for our family

I wanna cry, crying of happiness.
Mom,Dad, you always here in my heart
I will do as you wish :D
hehehhehe

MISS N LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOTHER AND FATHER!

this is

this is my heart or just my thought?

how's him today?
is he doing well in his school?
miss him

My Country

akhir2 ini negeriku dilanda berbagai musibah, dari Wasior, Sumatra, Jakarta, Yogya
y Allah ampuni dosa kami, bangsa ini y Allah...
berikanlah kesadaran bagi mereka yang telah khilaf ya Allah
kasihanilah bagi mereka yang telah berbuat baik namun mereka yang terkena imbas :(
lindungilah mereka yang baik y Allah...

y Allah

tapi ko abis ngasi dia semangat, jadi agak ga enakan yah?

apa aku salah ngomong?
kan aku sebagai teman hanya ingin memberi tahu n ngasi saran yang baik, aku hanya engga tega melihat orang yang tertekan, memang ada saatnya sih....

Semoga Allah selalu menyinari hatimu,,,amin

I asked my heart

doushite?

why did I fall in love with you?
 I don't want to be like this
really
I feel tired of this all

damn, that girl

sebut saja laki2 bernama Sandy
dan yang perempuan bernama Rheila

poor Sandy, masa iya setiap kegiatan yang Sandy ikutin, pasti ada mata2 dari Rheila ini, melalui teman2nya untuk mengawasi Sandy, that's so bad

y ampuun kasian, udah gitu nanti klo ada sesuatu Sandy dimarah2in
how poor him, at the fact he's an innocent and a good man, tapi belum ada ketegasan dalam dirinya, that's all karena hatinya atau dia belum menemukan jati diri dan belum berusaha untuk merubahnya, I think, he need a friend to make a brave his heart

he said that he's tired to her, namun dia merasa segan pada orangtua yang Rheila, karena Rheila sempat mengenalkan Sandy pada kedua orangtuanya, dan orang tuanya merasa setuju.
aku hanya memberinya saran, dia harus memiliki sifat yang tegas, iya itu iya jika tidak maka tidak, jangan ragu2
dan kukatakan pula aku sebenarnya orang yang ragu dan panikan, ternyata Sandy juga hahahahahha
well, aku hanya ingin berbagi pengalaman padanya, supaya dia lebih kuat dan tidak mudah untuk diperlakukan semena mena oleh pacarnya
it is hard to be a good person
Sandy cerita, klo Rheila yang mengajaknya untuk berpacaran, woow serem juga
Sandy orang yang polos, dia sama sekali belum pernah pacaran, karena saat itu dia bingung, makanya dia asal menerima, oooh how pity he is,and now, he don't know what to do

ya Allah, semoga Sandy diberikan kekuatan dan hatinya dicerahkan untuk menemui jati dirinya, dan motivasi apa yang ia ingin raih, dan ia menjadi memiliki ketegasan dan mengetahui langkah apa yang seharusnya dan memang harus diambil

I gave him an advice, why they're not talk each other, and be opened, rasa tidak enak pada diri Sandy yang membuat itu terhambat -____-
poor him

I can't believe about yesterday, that's was so funny enough! haha

and I'm happy

okey last nite I couldn't sleep well, I feel so hot bcause the rain was fall, humm it should be cold, maybe bcause my hair is long

happy 1st anniv

can't believe that today our 1st anniversary :)

hope the best for us

and todaayy I'm soo happyy xD

can't believe

is it real or not?

bahagia

bahagiaku akan doa orang kepadaku dan doaku kepada orang lain
yaitu

semangat, dan semoga sukses ya, amiiin :)

ya Allah

sekarang, aku ingin sekali semangat kuliah tentunya karenaMu ya Allah
aku harus memikirkan kedua orangtuaku disana
aku harus membawa hasil ketika aku disana

tapi
aku ingin melihat proses yang kulalui
bukan hasil

memang ada angket yang menyatakan bahwa aku adalah tipe orang yang tidak melihat proses, namun hasil
Allah sesungguhnya tidak melihat hasil, namun proses bukan?
aku ingin menjadi lebih dewasa dalam menghadapi hidup ini
aku tidak ingin lagi seperti dulu
dulu, dulu dan dulu

ya Allah, aku ingin lepas dari masa lalu...
aku tidak ingin lagi mengingat - ingat, biarlah yang berlalu, tanpa teringat, atau mengingat...
aku ingin apa yang kuhadapi sekarang di depan mataku
yaitu

BESOK KUIS BAHASA INDONESIA
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ya Allah semoga nilaiku bagus, 70 hingga 100, amiin >.<

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perasaanku lagi galau, entah marah atau bahagia

aku merasa masih belum bisa lepas dari masa lalu
aku yang saat itu masih belum bisa lepas dari masalah dengan teman, terutama dengan diriku sendiri
aku merasa letih, karena
aku merasa doaku belum terjawab

memang aku sendiri saat itu
memang aku hanya curhat dengan keluarga
memang aku hanya menyadari bahwa aku adalah orang yang mudah sekali terbuka pada siapa saja

itu salah satu kesalahanku

doaku, ya Allah, apa salahku, tunjukkkan dimana titik kesalahanku, agar aku bisa memperbaikinya
aku selalu bertanya pada orang - orang, pada adik kelas, teman2, bahkan k2 kelas, dan keluargaku
karena keluargaku lebih tau tentang diriku, entah kenapa komen yang seharusnya aku jadikan cambuk untuk aku berubah, namun kutolak, aku masih belum dapat mengalahkan egoku, dan aku sadar akan itu, sulit untuk menerima

dan aku menanyakan pada orang lain, entah mengapa, nampaknya aku adalah orang yang sudah baik, dan fine2 saja

tapi hati ini masih terus bertanya, entah apa hati memang lebih peka akan keadaan yang sesungguhnya
tahun demi tahun, 3 tahun sudah terlewati
kutemukan jawabannya, aku kaget, shock, aku tak menyangka aku seperti itu, tapi kenapa?
kenapa mereka menutupinya dariku?
kenapa mereka berkata aku harus cari sendiri?
bagaimana bisa aku tahu?
bagaimana aku bisa sadar?

aku manusia, aku sering kali introspeksi diriku, namun tak juga kutemukan jawabannya
setelah mengetahui itu semua, aku bahagia, bersyukur karena pada akhirnya Allah menjawab doaku
aku sedih, karena saat itu aku belum bisa menemukan jawabannya
aku sedih, karena sebagian dari mereka ada yang membenciku tanpa sebab
aku sedih, karena sebagian dari mereka bersikap beda ketika di depan dan di belakangku

ya Allah, terima kasih karena Engkau sudah membuka mata hati ini, tanpa dia, salah seorang temanku, aku takkan mengerti dan akan terus bertanya, tapi Engkau memang Maha Menepati Janji, Engkau selalu mengabulkan doa - doa yang terpanjat dari hamba - hambaMu yang lemah...

ya Allah, aku ingin menangis, tapi entah mengapa air mata enggan mengalir
ya Allah, apakah dia masih marah kepadaku?

entah meski 2 tahun sudah kami berpisah, tapi hati ini terkadang memikirkannya, mengapa ia tidak bisa lepas?
karena aku tidak ingin membencinya, namun yang kusedihkan adalah dia sudah benar - benar cuek, tidak ada kabar.
memang aku tidak berharap ada kabar atau apalah, tapi setidaknya kita berhubungan baik, bukan seperti ini, ini seolah - olah kami seperti orang asing...

sebenarnya itu masih membuatku trauma, hingga sekarang, aku tidak tahu bagaimana ke depan nanti, tapi intinya adalah aku tidak ingin membenci, dan tidak juga ingin dibenci
aku ingin menyayangi, dan disayangi
ya Allah...
apa yang harus hamba lakukan?
hamba benar2 bingung.... >.<

I don't know how

something different..
I found something that I don't know, or maybe I know?

dear GOD, am I did something wrong?
but I don't know how >.<

even

i passed SEPTEMBER without posting anything :))

dear my blog

i've been busy lately, and almost not touch internet world :))
specially facebook and twitter
well i wanna open my new page, just throw away my past, after i know it all :(
now just look the future....

just think that I never know anything about the past things...

:')

I should

of course 1 thing in my life CHEER UP :D

being apart each other

we are apart now, our relationship in distance, rarely contact
i dunno why i hate distance *sometimes
cause it makes me feel uncomfortable, and I asked myself, am I did something wrong?

I know myself, sometimes I wanna be alone, just with music
that doesn't mean I want to avoid my friends, of course not, I just need a time
I just want to look back what i've been through
my past, just learn from it *like what he said
and do my best on the next time
I love to do intrapersonal, cause I feel I do communication with the ONE who create me, and also myself, I love my life :)

idk

today's fun!
we've been open our fasting together at WS (Warung Steak)
and after that we take a picture together, we're very loud ya :))

hahahha bcause of me, my friends and I were stuck, wrong take an angkot (one of transportation in Bogor)
the truth is we should across and then take it but we don't
my friends just follow me bcause i'm in front hahahahhaha xD

start from 23th of August, me and all my friends in my class will be separate,bcause we'll join with the students reguler
we've been together for 1 month, but it feels like we've already known each other for years
some of my friends were sad and send me a message, hahaha believe me friends, some of us will be 1 class :))
it's great that our institute had to random the students in our class and move some of them.
so we gonna know where the new students and have more friends :)
that's what communication for :D
share a story, etc.

again, I remembered with DULASMANGKA, i really miss them so badly T___T
icha and achmad were invited me to come for bukber tomorrow but,my brother isn't allowed me to
the reason is my brother afraid that i'll home at night, and I even don't know situation in jakarta
i know, well maybe my brother knows me well than me :)

but i feel sorry to my friends, i can't joined them, altough i wanna joined so muchhhh mucchh muchh
ok i think till here for today, i'm gonna sleep for hours and get up for sahur :D
catch ya later my blog :*

atikahappy

u know that my friends in my class now called me with ATIKAHAPPY?
just bcause my twitter's name :))
LOL

but i'm glad to called by that :))
atikahappy hihi

Marhaban ya Ramadhan

alhamdulillah, so thankful to Allah
Allah still give me a chance to have a fasting this year, and I hope I can get a happy fasting next year, amiin xD
thank you my Allah <3
ok my activity this month is
12-13 = UAS
14-18 = holiday *yaaayy xD
19-21 = mpkmb
23 - dst = lecture again joined with reguler students :)
CHEER UP, always say this, SEMANGAT

I hope I never tired to say those words
and I hope I never say "tired"

sometimes I feel that I'm still sensitive, but am I wrong if I feel sensitive if someone being joke with me but for me that word was not good for me
well you know, a words come out from a mouth is a pray?

and I tried to have introspection by myself...
but am I changed?
or still the same?
what about my heart?

maybe sometimes maybe always

I though that I talk-active
i hate this one, but in another hand, i like it
first, why I hate bcause i'm scared i'm gonna hurt anyone *nauzubillah
second, i'm scared i'm gonna lose control

i like it, bcause i could change from sad situation into happy situation
but sometimes i can't
I wanna be a not talk-active
but, I remember with *be who you are or be yourself
i just wanna change myself, to be better >.<

am I right?
or not?

............

I think I've tried my best to
i start to used to lived here
i start to love my new environment  here
3 months I'm here since I left Riyadh, wanna go back to Riyadh A.S.A.P (as soon as possible)
i miss Riyadh and everything's there hikz T______T
but i love indonesia too xD

<3
Alhamdulillah, thank's to my Allah :)

i couldn't say anything than.....

no I shouldn't says I'm TIRED
of course NO
NO I WASN'T TIRED

i'm happy and enjoy with my life's here, Alhamdulillah
i wanna more mature :)

sometimes

sometimes i feel sad if i can't join invites from my friends ;'(

today

huaaa miss uu soo mucchhh T_______________________________________T

tanpa terasa 11th of august will happy fasting yeahh WELCOME MONTH OF RAMADHAN, greetings it month love <3

holiday

icha will come to my kos, asiiik :D
even tough we're in 1 institute, but we're rarely to meet each otherr, yesterday we've like not meet 1 year :))

don't want to set it as a title today

i don't know why, i started to feel tired with my heart
really tired, i'm tired to control it, i'm tired to speak with it
my brother told me that Allah close with our heart, so don't disobey with what our heart says..

maybe this tired just temporaly

my childhood best friend

i should post this yesterday, but because something happened and i've been busy at my college :D

okay, started after my exams, there's a message, no name, just numbers
i thought who's it, maybe my friends in my class
how surprised i am, she's  FARHANA, or we can call her Hana
i'm so thankful, we've been separated for 7 years ><
no contact and else

so, i wrote on my note

i'm so happy today, at last i got a contact with my best childhood, we've been separated 4 7 years, thank to my Allah :')
and i got her facebook, i tried to found it, but i didn't get it, and she used her another name LOL

UTS, Quiz part 2, UAS

SEMANGAT! CHEER UP

my family, my motivation :)

I wanna be a translator to 4 languages, english, arabic, korean n japan
amiiin

this week

humm, i'm sad about he has lost his handphone T.T
no contact except by twitter, when I saw his photos on facebook, i just realized that i've been miss hiiiim T__________________________T

now I've listening Geisha's song - Takkan Pernah Ada

alhamdulillah, i feel much better now :)

udah g pusing, tapi semalam gara2 sakit sempet mimpi buruk -________- tidur g tenang tapi tidur banyak juga

i'm happy but i'm sick today

alhamdulillah, i've accepted in IPB with ichaa, xD

thank u y Allah, i'm speechless now
nothin to do, uurrhh but i'm sick, i got a lil fever now -_________________-
while i'm happy huhuhuhu T.T
hope i will get better soon, thank's to u my love :)
and also my family, all of u are important for me....

take my heart, take my heart, into your heart...

i'm sorry if i made u worried...

7th of july

y Allah, moga tanggal 7 besok semua berjalan lancar, sukses n sesuai yang tika harapkan, amiin
moga diterima y Allah, lancaaarrr ><

yakin yakin, just believe

hari ini badan pegel, sakit2, kaki terutama, begitu duduk atau berdiri, serba salah, menyat menyut T.T
jalan ke kos tu naik turun, tanjakan, lumayan tinggi, huhu jadi yah gitu d, mungkin karena belum terbiasa aja, lama2 juga klo udah biasa jadi enak ^^

nothin to do but prepare for tomorrow :D

still bad mood, nothin to do huhuhu T.T
i feel bored here, but tomorrow, i'll go to my institute :D
huaaaaaaaaaaaaa

language

i wanna improve my english, my korean, my arabic and my english ^^

humm 3rd of july

g jadi ikut reuni?itu pasti -____-
dikarenakan hari nampaknya yg kurang tepat, yaitu pada hari sabtu dmana orang2 indonesia merasakan weekend, dan pastinyya MACET

oh nooo ><
so today i'm going to pita's house with icha, and maybe we'll going to find a red map for our registration to IPB on 5th of july deg deg deg xD
and we'll start our college *i mean me n icha* on 12th of july, we can say matriculation or in indonesia matrikulasi :P

about last night, i think i miss my family, and why my heart feels broken, that cause i've many things to think about.....
i shouldn't do that, and beside that i've been jealous with my brother, cause my mom lately didn't call me, but call him -______- hohohoho

i'm afraid my heart will change....
i wanna keep my heart who i fall in love with, but sometimes i do hesitant my heart, am I ever falling in love ?
why do I feel easy to like someone?
and why do I easy to forget someone?
I don't understand...with my heart now what should i do? ><

i don't understand

what's wrong with my heart, suddenly i cried so much today....
i miss my family, i miss my love there, i miss everything...

i wanna meet them ><
dear my Allah...
i wanna be a success girl, i wanna success in my college.... amiiinn :)

enjoy today :)

i'm here with pita my best friend beside me now ^^
we're going to watch eclipse today, but i heard from my friend that film kinda boring, humm is it right?

but hope i'll enjoy ^^

i can't stop miss my family :(
my sister, i'll make a nutrijel for you if i already in riyadh hehehe, wait for me yah ^^

iihhh sebeelll

those kids, wanna kickk youuu errrggghh

today

okay so I try to live in here, di kosan, today will be my first day :)
I'm happy bcause there's a hotspot hehehe :D

but I miss my mom n my dad there, I wonder what are they doing now, i really miss them so bad, oh not forget my sister n my brother :(

i miss someone i loved out there, far from me...
i'll be waitin ><

my 18th tomorrow

okay, the person who say happy birthday the 1st to me by phone is my MOM xD
whuaaa thank u so much mom mwahh mwaahh

and the person who the first sending happy birthday to me by sms is Achmad hahahaha
thank u so much friend, u still remember my birthday ^^

how happy I'm, I ever think, what about if I ever forget my birthday?:P

bcause I always remember, lol
alhamdulillah ^^

welcome June

ok let's see what will be my story in this month

startin from today, I went to my kos and put my shirts, step by step, and tomorrow morning me and my brother will go there again, about move on there?
will be started after I get my ktp :P

i miss my mom and my dad so much :'(

whew

I think it's been a long time I didn't write in this blog (wahaha in the fact about half a month)
As time passes by,I just lived in here about 1 month since - leave riyadh,hiks I miss riyadh so bad :(
Umm start from 1st of june I'll move on to kos :D
And from 12th of july I'll start my college,it's been 2 months I didn't touched my books,lol
I miss school,and study

tomorrow, umm i think today

today, why I said today?coz I write this now at midnite :P

so I'm goin to indonesia tonite, by garuda
maybe about 10.00 o'clock, hope there isn't "delay"

uh, it feels so fast, I'm gonna wait for my family and someone to go to Indonesia, and I'm gonna miss u much there T_______T

still in love with Riyadh

y Allah, I wanna improve my english ><

happy

today I'm soo happy, so fast u know, like I'm dreaming but it's real, now we've been months x)

my hearts r grown up, Alhamdulillah
y Allah, hope our love to Allah are more than everything, hope Allah are our first love, amiin ^^
happy happy happy <3

jumaattt

waaa g kerasa jum'at tika baliik ke indoo ><
gonna miss Riyadh so much
tepatnya tanggal 23 April <3

abis itu tanggal 26 pengumuman kelulusan, y Allah ya Rabbi, mudah2an DULASMANGKA lulus semuaaa dengan nilai gemilang dan baik dan memuaskan amin y Rabb x)
dan diterima di universitas masing2 yang diinginkan...
amin amin amin

<3

yesterday

sooo fuun, hahahaha
even though sempet rada bt gitu deh *klo orang lain liat mungkin bilangnya g jelas, but for me no, itu jelas ko*

jeprat jepret sana sini, huaah so many things to describe <3

april

noo I shouldn't remember but...
let it away :)

look at the future for the best :)
huaaah this month will be, will be quee seraa seraa *lho lho?
umm i'm so happy, but i'm sad too, I'm gonna leave Riyadh, n insya Allah i'll be back here for a 9 months, or maybe a year, but just a week maybe, and then go back...
I LOVE RIYADH, I left many stories here TT______________________TT

specially in a winter, winter in Riyadh, I always in love you know....

forever

people told me that I'm too care --"

demi cinta

kumiliki kamu untuk bahagia
kuhidup denganmu bukan untuk sesaat
itulah ikrar berdua
saling memberi saling menerima
saling mengerti dan saling menjaga
biar tak ada luka
cinta

reff:
seharusnya saling jujur bicara demi cinta
seharusnya kau dan aku percaya satu cinta
untuk selamanya

diberi bahagia rasakan berdua
diberi luka nikmati bersama
indah saling mencinta
cinta
_________________________________________

should be like this...

Indonesia, i'm coming

Sofy n Annie kmaren udah terbang ke Indonesia, sama tujuan dan tempat beda pesawat, waduh :))
tanggal 7, Farah, Amanda n Ryan menyusul
kemudian, Achmad n Tasya tanggal 9
Tika n Icha, pertengahan bulan April ini...
Fadil lanjut bulan July...
Aisya rencananya mau ambil UT 1 semester n abis tu apply ke universitas lain..
moga sukses untuk kita semua, amiin y Allah :)
insya Allah rencana 14 april, dunno there's a flight or not :P

tapi rencananya udah dipasang tanggal sekian, belum mesen tiket...

tika ko ngerasa kayak Riyadh-Indo tuh deket ya?
serasa Riyadh n Jeddah, tapi entah kenapa, akhir2 ini jadi mau nangis terus....
ngebayang mama dikit aja, tika di sekolah, mama dirumah, beberapa jam aja udah kangen, udah mau nangis T____T
sekarang tika masi bisa senyam senyum nemplok sama mama, tapi ntar....

kata mama demi masa depan, emang iya, harus berjuang T______________T
palagi tika belum pernah jauh dari ortu dalam periode yang lama....
klo jauh, motivasi tika dalam belajar makin kuat g ya? :D
n sifat malas itu akan menjauh gak ya? :D
mogaa, tika makin rajin belajar, makn rajin baca buku, makin bagus dalam hal mengatur waktu, n menjadi orang yang disiplin, seperti yang diharapkan tika selama ini, amiin y Rabb x)

SEMANGAT

going to Indonesia

tika ngerasa pulang ke indonesia is not something special *cailah* I mean I feel common, but I feel that I left something here waaa T_____T not something, maybe somebody, or manybody *lho?* yea my family, my special one, my my and my so on ;P

y Allah, semoga ada rezekiku untuk kembali mencium Ka'bah-Mu y Rabb, amiin
I'll miss Saudi Arabia sooo mucchh, this city, where I've been born T___T
ekonomi Riyadh juga bisa dikata Alhamdulillah, bersyukur banget, kurang apa nikmat dari Allah untuk keluarga ini Alhamdulillah, sungguh bodoh diri ini jika tidak pandai2 mensyukuri nikmat-Nya

I love you Allah :)

dear blog log 2.lo3 = 624 *lho lho

uhh kenapa "pusing" itu datang disaat yang tidak tepat?
saat2 lagi mw konsen gini, jadi serba salah deh ni badan...

jadi tika pulang2 sekitar jam 10.30, tika emang berencana istirahat n bangun langsung belajar
but what happening?

klo bahasanya tasya "my body is not delicious" hahahhahahaha adaaa aja =))

kepala pusing, badan pegel2 g jelas, dan dengan indahnya "malas" datang tak diundang --"

I always said "semangat", but I feel now that word just speak T____T
emang si tujuan tika bilang itu di dalam hati atau pun secara lisan, just my motivation for the future, but don't know why that "lazy" masih aja engga bisa dibuang juga ....
y Allah, paling kesel klo lawan malas...

mustinya tika mikir dung *emang udah mikir si :P*
bentar lagi kuliah, tugas dari dosen, mandiri, engga lagi nyantai2 seperti SMA saat iniiiiiiii
meskipun dibawa santai tapi seriuslah
tika ngerasa SMA ini masih kurang T____T
tika selalu yakin tika bisa semua pelajaran, tapi tetep aja masi ada yang lemot, apa mungkin masih kurang latihan ya?
kenapa tika yakin?

"karena semua otak manusia itu sama, yang membedakan hanyalah bagaimana masing2 mengasah otak mereka"

accepted :D

oia tika blum cerita nii, hehehe tika is very happy, at least one of my pray is answered, yaitu tika diterima di IPB jurusan Komunikasi, Alhamdulillah y Allah syukraaan jaziillaan x)

perjuangan setelah UN belum berakhir, karena perjuangan selanjutnya adalah kuliah :D:D
SEMANGAT ! CHEER UP !

discipline

ni salah satu yang sanggaaaatt tika inginkan saat ini :)
disiplin, tapi susah banget T_____________T
klopun bisa hanya bertahan beberapa, n berikutnyaaa lalalaa ~~~

tapi tika yakin tika bisa ^^
butuh waktu aja, asal niat kuat...
aaaaaaaaa y Allah, pengen banget jadi orang disiplin n menjadi orang yang biasa membaca buku ><
bukan sekedar membaca, namun memahami semua isinya, layaknya ketika aku baca komik n novel, setebel apapun buku itu, dapat kupaparkan semua, inti dari buku tersebut per bab...
gara2 g terlalu biasa, dari kelas 1 n 2 SMA, jadi karena begitu berkutat depan buku, leher sakit dsb
jadi, tika mau terbiasa berkutat dengan buku :D

besok, adalah UN
y Allah, berikanlah tika kemudahan y Rabb, dalam menjawab soal2 dengan memilih jawaban yang benar, dan semoga tika bisa menjadi apa yang tika inginkan n harapkan, SUKSES, amiiin :)

DULASMANGKA dan anak2 ujian diseluruh dunia, semoga sukses untuk kita semua, good luck for our UN, amiin :)
BISMILLAH, kita semua harus dan pasti bisa
SEMANGAT !

motivation

jadi rabu kmarin diadakan motivasi buat anak2 SIR khusus kelas Ujian
skalian muhasabah, pas muhasabah pada nangis semua, dalam kegelapan yang kedengeran cuma srot2 anak2 lain, ada suara "isak tangis" yang pastinya dari anak perempuan, yang g mungkin laki2, klopun ada suara itu dari anak laki2, wah gtw deh :D

termasuk tika. nangis juga, terutama pas dibahas tentang kelakuan terhadap orangtua, alhamdulillah ada muhasabah gini, jadi bisa sadar, moga2 aja bukan sadar sambel, tapi sadar selamanya, amin
uniknya, dalam kegelapan itu kan ada sinar dari kipas basement, tika sempet2nya liat kebelakang, liat Ryan, ni anak nyantai banget, cuma liat kedepan n kaga nangis sama sekali, gtw deh nyadar apa engga, n tika n liat jam n hati tika ngebatin "waduh, sinetron mawarmelati dah mulai nih moga2 bentar lagi selesai ni acara n tika bisa ke kantor ayah n nonton" konyol banget kan? :))

nah sebelumnya ada slide show, yaitu video perut ibu pas di cesar, gilaaaaa darah2 mana dokternya enak banget lagi kayak geser barang aja tu perut dioyak2 nauzuubillaahhh ><
tika liat sekitar rata2 anak2 pada ngilu sendiri, termasuk tika, klo orang yang g kuat liat darah, mungkin liat tu video dah pingsan x ya?

dah gtu, sebelum slide show tersebut, disetel lagu sedih instrument, karena enak2, lagi2 sempet2nya tika nyatet di note hp dan tentunya berencana akan mendownload lagu tersebut, LOL

sesudah itu, dminta oleh guru tika, "oleh karena itu, minta maaflah dengan teman2 kalian sekiranya ada salah selama ini" akhirnya pada salam2an, lagi2 hati tika ngebatin "selesaii, sekarang nontoon, eits pas ke kelas dijamin anak2 pada ketawa2 lagi" dan tika sempet2nya lagi ambil oreo n mikir "lama2 laper juga"

eh bener di kelas pada kacau, dan berencana akan menyiram Annie yang padahal ultahnya hari ini, namun karena kamis libur akan dirayakan rabu, waduh, baru aja maav2an dah mw maen siram2an hahahaha
alhasil pada sok2an mw moto2 dululah, hari terakhir belajarlah dkk
annie percaya aja, begitu liat kita, dari belakang fadil n ryan dah nyiram, annie teriak, n bales siram anak2 lain, meskipun tika nyiram annie, tapi hanya tika n aisya yang g kena hehehehe ^^v

temen2 semua pada basah kuyup, yang unik farah n tasya, kerudungnya paris, jadi keliatan cepet kering, meskipun begitu dipegang basah deh :P

yaa dari motivasi rabu kemaren, tika dapet tu Kodok Budeg, dari slide show guru tika, walaupun sebelumnya pernah diceritakan di kelas :)
jadi, ada banyak kodok berlomba2 menuju gunung paling atas, yang berhasil hanya 1, karena dia budeg, saat pada naik, orang2 berteriak, terlalu tinggi! takkan bisa! udah nyerah aja!

so, nilai moralnya adalah, kita jangan mendengarkan orang lain yang ingin membuat kita jatuh, yang akan membuat kita pesimis, carilah teman yang menyayangi dan yang akan selalu memberi kita semangat ^^
kemaren juga sempet dceritakan tentang gimana akhirnya Santiago bisa jadi pemain bola terkenal, itu berkat dukungan hanya dari neneknya, sedangkan ayah dan teman2nya hanya membuat dia down, tapi Santiago g kenal menyerah ^^
tika juga pengen g ada kata kalah di hati ini, pengen jadi orang disiplin, dan tentunya harus pelan2 karena g bisa serta merta itu semua terjadi, dan tentunya dengan tekad yang kuat...

I'm happy that u give me ur support to me my dear, and my friends, and my family, thank u so much :)
always success 4 us, amiin y Allah...

please prepare well

c'moon no need to be worry about, if we alredy prepare well, so tika c'moon just do it and prepare well
we can count it :D
3 more days left....
as my teacher said "you shludn't be nervous, it's have no different with daily exams ^^"

cheer up

count on

yaa tinggal beberapa hari lagi :D
sedihnyaa, sekarang Riyadh mulai musim panaaas TT____________TT
masih cinta musim dingin ni xD
ko kayaknya musim dingin bentar banget ya?

smalem gara2 AC jadi rebutan sama mama antara nyalain AC apa engga :))

hate

yea, sometimes I hate myself, coz I can't manage myself well

umm from manage time to studying, aand so on
but...
when I meet him, I know we rarely to meet each other, but when the times comes, I can't use that time well =="

I feel bad for that...
why that feeling "the bad feeling" must come?why?
at last we just have a little thing to talk to...
not much....

and...went home...and sleep...

humm about this blog?

who's read my blog?
I think not so many people, maybe just 1 or 2 people read this

so?
what's my purpose to write my stories in this blog?
just wanna share :D

what's different with a diary?
same, if people can open it, of course they can read it
the different, a diary is a lil secret, but blog are published :))

my lovely iPod, please don't restore my files

of course I have a problem with it
well my iPod asked me to restore it, nooooooooooooooo
if there isn't any files in it, of course with easily I'll do it ><
but...
there's sooo manny files, specially videos, photos aaand so on T______________T

Dear my Allah, please give me a chance to take my files in iPod, after that I'll restore iPod without sadness and happily, please ><

coz we can't have a moment without photos or videos, even tough we have it in our mind....
annndd, I have my files of this class, chemistry, physics, we called its BSE (buku sekolah elektronik)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

hufft once again, I hate to say "if only" 
><
but
I'm happy that yesterday my friends, Adit, help me how to resolve it, but still can't ><
and he will find another way to resolve it, thank u dude ;)


so, before I can't get it files back, I won't easily restore my iPod ! ! !

can't calm

well bcause that I have the same dream these 3 days, and what I've been dream is about my accepted in my college IPB, wish it'll come true insya Allah, allahumma amiin x)
I've been dream that I opened that website and saw the announcement me and Icha are accepted in IPB's university, aaaaaaamiiiiiiiiiiiinn xD

and I heard from Tita yesterday or last yesterday maybe, she said that the announcement will be late, coz like last year, the announcement after UN ><
omg, what a time --"

and my friends told me that I should find cadangan :D:D

what about tomorrow?
tomorrow will be 3rd of try out
c'mon tikaaa just don't waste ur time !
talk less do more yea :D

count on

humm about 20 more days left T___T
cmon tika let's prepare it well ><
after UN if I been accepted by IPB Insya Allah n amiin, maybe about first week of April I'll go back to Indonesia...

><

ok for my future, hope my family n u will be fine here, amiin x)
gonna miss u all....

piano

my mom said to me "fokus sama 1 dulu, jangan banyak angan2, tanamkan itu dalam hati"
after I talked about piano, well I wanna learn how to play piano, really x)

I know we should focus at 1 side, my college, look at condition first...
mom said "bercita2 boleh"

y Allah, semoga ada rezeki untuk hamba menuntut ilmu x)
allahumma amiin y Allah, SEMANGAT !

humm my brother told me, klo piano yang senar sekitar 60jt-500jt !
kalo piano elektrik sekitar 6-20jt .... lumayan sih
klo guru les, ada yang 500rb/bulan....
tapi di jakarta deket blok M..

aduh, napa deh g di bogor aja? ;(
pengennya beli sendiri n belajar sendiri lewat internet...

y Allah...pengeeeennn T_____________________T

past....

once again, I'm so sorry about last nite...

I don't mean it, I just got shocked coz remembering my past...
I'm so sorry before...
when I read that u said "im fine with it"

here's my reason why I'm still shocked....
well, I ever asked him, do u have something that u don't like from me?just tell me honestly please
he said, nothin, I like it all
but...
when we already broke up, he said with reason that acceptable, but I still  feel that there's something he hide from me, about 6 months later I found it by myself, I got info, he don't like me coz I still like a kid...
that's mean he lie to me..
and I don't want it happen twice...
trauma... ><
after all this time, I wanna change myself, specially that one...
like too many barriers...

I don't want to remember about past, like what u said to me "don't look the past, just learn from it"
well, my teacher's right, it's easy to lie the others, but it's hard to lie ourselves...
I don't wanna lie people and myself....

like a kid

that words, i know it's hurt, my teacher told me "be honest even it's hurt, but in the future it will be good"

I wanna change, really but it's hard
he said it to me, I'm happy even I cry...
but it's ok, but is he honest to me?
he said he's ok with that...

no, he's not ok with it, I don't want it happen again like the past, NOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!

><


where can I start to change it?
be silent?

maybe.....

:)

umm I can't explain what I feel now xD

the way my mom teach me

I love her, she always give me a spirit
when I'm sad bcause I got a bad mark, wish it wouldn't happen anymore, amiin

love u mom

minggu ini minggu ujian praktek, y ampun, jadwal tika jadi g keatur
pulang ke rumah, abis bimbel, kmaren pulang2 langsung mandi, cuaca naik turun , panas n dingin, temen2 dah pada mulai pilek, cepet sembuh ya semua, n moga2 tika g kena, amiiin *hehehehe ^^V*

jadi pas abis mandi, tika nonton bentar niatnya si nunggu rambut kering, terus tika bilang ke ayah
"yah, ternyata seger juga ya pulang2 mandi"
"iyalah, awas lho abis itu ngantuk"
terus pas mama bangun, tika liat kasur, aduh kayaknya enak deh guling2, eeeeeeeh bablas tidur =))
kbangun jam 12, liat hp, ada sms dari dia, y ampuuuuuuun langsung d tika bales, n pastinya dia dah tiduuurr ><

terus kjadian terulang smalem, tika tidur lagi jam 8 --"
bangun2 dah jam 1, bales langsung aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
k nana bilang
"tika, kasian tw dia, sms 2 hari ini, tika malah tidur"

T___________T maav...
why all I can do is just say sorry? :(

waaaaaaaa i'm so happy now

becooozzz

5 more days left xD

about situation in my school now

wheew, klas 1 SMA bolong ! =))

i mean bcoz or school make a tangga darurat
nah terus kelas tersebut artinya dalam perbaikan, so dikunci, tapi ada tulisan

"MOHON UNTUK MASUK RUANGAN INI"

hahahahha mustinya ada tambahan setelah kata untuk, yaitu "TIDAK" :P:P

1 month

well I think 1 month left...
UN makin dekat, tika udah bicara sama ayah, kata ayah tika pulang ke indo awal april...
bareng k adi....

tika ke indo buat berjuang selama kurang lebih 3 tahun T______________________T
and I've been thinking about him and my future...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm gonna miss everything's here sooooooo muuccchh
my family, my live till now
Riyadh, even tough it's not my country, but I love Riyadh xD
I'm so thankful y Allah, this is all because of you so I can live till now, with my lovely parents, my lovely school

I always heard about people in Indonesia....

I'm gonna miss SHAWARMA xD
gonna miss ma school
gonna miss ma school day

EVERYTHING

specially him...
I'll be waitin u in Indonesia :')

JDUUSSHHH
balik ke waktu sekarang, OK UAN makin dekaaat hadapi dulu yang di dpan mata xD
y Allah, mudah2an hamba diterima di IPB sama Icha alias Siti Hafsah
y Allah, mudah2an hamba lulus UAN dengan nilai gemilang dengan DULASMANGKA dan anak2 kelas ujian yang lain y Allah
amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin allahumma amiiin y Allah x)

the way he talk by message

by handphone I mean, when we've send a message to each other, klo boleh bilang sebeeeeeeeeell banget nget nget

abissaaan, when I talked much, but he only answered with simple thing
hih, I mean biar pulsanya g mubaziiirrr xD

upset --"

well, there's sum1 in fesbuk that I've been upset with coz he's ga jelas gitu deh, ngirim2 message g jelas --"
pengen delete, salah
pengen ngomong langsung n bilang "tolong ya, jangan bilang gitu, tika ngerasa diganggu", tersinggung tar n salah, n tar dibilang sombong, huuuuuuuuuuuuuuh

tika ngerasa serba salah deh, dia ngomong, tika jawab baik2, eeehh malah kayak ngelunjak !
KESEL AH

nanya si boleh2 aja, tapi tolong dah bahasanya --"
tu orang klo makin jadi2 ngirim message ga jelas I'll DELETE him, or should I tell him that I dislike with what he do?
tu orang kesannya ALAY gitu
X(

have a bad day and a bad time

well dunno why maybe I'm too tired, so I came back at home after ashar, I wanna ol with him, but bcause my sister still using this laptop, so I decide to waiting 4 her, but it's too loooooooooooooongg T____________T

till I got tired so I went slept, and when I'm sleeping, my mother's friend call to my handphone, errgghh I gave it to my mom and continued my sleeping, it's bad --"

till about 1.30 am, he sent me a message, and at that time I realized "MY GOD I'VE BEEN SLEPT TILL NOW????"

i'm so sorry T_______T


skrang jam 05.03 pagi, mw tidur tapi pusing, mual ><
my body is not delicious => gak enak badan =))

at least xD

well today's the end of try out part 2, there's still 2 lefts of TO nyam =3

I'm so sorry to my special one hihihihihi well tought that I've confuse what should I post about :D:D

what a day LOL

today is achmad birthday, don't u know?
achmad brought a cake called Black Forest maybe coz it tastes great xD

ok so after that, my friends started to put the cakes on achmad's face and he said "udah dong, udaah bimbeel" while he said that, his friends keep do it and also ME :))
but I just once, and so many my friends more than me, til his face like a statue :))
I prefer to eat coz I'm hungry at that time, while I'm eating, my feeling just said "tika, watch out, achmad bakal ngamuk nih balesin semua satu per satu"
so I looked back, and that's RIGHT! achmad stand up from his sit, and I run away with Icha n Aisya, my another friends scream out loud "gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

so we hide for a while, when we came back, icha and aisya are running again, except me!
all my friends, except me, manda (at that time in her house), aisya n icha, already got it cake on their face :))

so when I want to run again, it late coz annie already catch me till I got down ampe guling2 and my friends catch ME waaaaaaaaaa my face full of chocolate ><
don't u know?I taste it cake twice, but from my lips :))
and some of my friends put it till it got into my NOSE!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tika ngupil (ngeluarin tu kue yg masuk idung)yg ada kue cokelat deh yang keluar =))
*PD banget ya ngomongnya?* ^^V
but the most parah tu TIKA! ampe guling2 gara2 pada nyerbu --"

yah cemong dah tika, errr happy and fun :))
and when manda's back to school, and she looked us, she said "omg" and run away =))
so when she came back, and after bimbel, we put all sisa of chocolates on her face but parahnya ampe nyiram pake air 1 botol, LOL
manda has twice her birthday :))

last night :)

we walked around, to faisaliah huaaaaa so happy :)
I ate ice cream, named LOVE POTION, it tastes great xD
don't u know?I'm so happy, I can't say it with words ><

one more time, I'm SPEECHLESS.................

<3
so so happy x)


at that night was sooo cold, that's why I love winter, since I was 15th, I know that there's always a story of love in Winter :)
I'm so thankful God <3


loveuloveuloveu

speechless

well today I feel something weird in my heart, all in one, feel dizzy, I cry I cry and I cry T______________T

but...

dunno why, he always come, he always there, when I cry...why?
I even dunno why ><
at that time, he change my bad mood to good mood :)
but...

at that time I can't control myself, don't u know?I just wasted my time!!!!
it's hard to meet him ><
only certain time we can meet each other, but???
WHY???
why I just left him ???
I just went away, without say nothing......

I'm so sorry T________________________________T
I really really I'm, I don't mean it :(

after a hour I cried, my sister send me a message, she told me that he was here....
at first, I can believe it, I tried to read it again, I think my sister told me that he was ol, but, it's uncommon, she wouldn't sent me a message, that's mean he really was here !
TT______________________TT

I'm so sorry at this time I can't accompany u to go anywhere...
but after my national exams, let's hang out together :')


"I'm happy when u said to me "why?" while my heart was sad"
thank u so much :')
<3 u

about my class

thankful to Allah, Allah's the one who answer my pray :)
from 1st senior high school I always pray to Allah, hopes that Allah will send me and SIR many friends, specially in my class

and wanna know the result?
the result is, now 3rd of senior high school is the 1st large students in our school Alhamdulillah :)
that's all of course because of Allah ><
since I sit in 1st SHS, I prayed that I wanna have a 12 members in my class, and it's became true, even tough now are about 11 students, but I'm so thankful of it ^^

which class I love the most?
the answer of course my Dulasmangka, my 3rd SHS, coz I've a bad experience when I'm 1st and 2nd shs, don't want to remember, just let it past and hope it'll never happened anymore ^^

bleeding or kegores?

well I dunno what should I write about topic today, but I tell you a small things which is not important :))

ok this morning, when I took out my books, my hand got a stretch on it, omg, at first I just lil shock, but after that, whew, I feel hurt --"
it's not short, little long, the most I feel hurt when I washed it with a wet tissue hahaha

humm before that happens, in the morning when I have my breakfast, it's hot, wheew but because of time, so I ate it fast till I feel burn in my tongue....

oh ya, the annoyed things is, when I having my biology's class, I got slept !
LOL, dunno why, I'm very sleepy at that time till I got sleep --"
and ryan was take a video of me while I'm sleeping, arrrrrrrrrrrrr
even ryan lil shout to wake me up, I still sleep !

hufft, maybe about 15 minutes ! hahahhaha my teacher and my friends, they are not wake me up !
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
but, when I realized and wake up, I feel fresh, well even tough I only have my sleep 15 minutes :))
wheew, don't u know?
my friends was make a fun of me, they told me that I'm ngigau called him _ _ h _ a _and my teacher looked at me and asked my friends, who is he?

LOL
I believe them at first, but my heart can't be lied, so at last I found out my friends just make a fun of me :))

umroh bareng

di bus yang paling asik pas dari madinah, selesai makan, matiin lampu bus, n pada tidur semua ampee nyampe di Riyadh, bener2 tenang deh suasananya :))

injection makes me sad n got lil sick

so this morning I'm busy with my formulir to IPB, they said that it's late, but I'm optimistic that it will be accepted, amiin xD there's still a time :D

at 9.00 the doctor and his antek2 come to my school, so from junior till senior high school should got injection, except fadil n ryan, they keep playin basketball =))
ryan was so scared about injection :))

and before I turn is manda, she's so scared, she called my name with fear, omg it makes me feel scared too, dunno why, maybe just because I got cold --"
I already with my left hand, but the arabic person said "ckckckck (he told me to right arm)"
omg, I don't want my right arm, coz my teacher told me, it'll stiff, so it better to get injection with left arm, ok so I tried to accept the fate :))
coz manda lil scared, I got scared too =))
well, it lil hurt, and I can't believe it, my arm where the injection got puffy, omg, so hurt, I got headache, I wanna throw up, my face turn into white special my lips =.=

I just realized that I'm not breakfast yet, so I decide to eat after got the injection huaaaaaaaaaaa so sad, I'm crying to feel this pain *lol*
and not too long after I came back to the class, my friends told me that they're feel sick too, but not like me, I think I'm the most feel the pain than them --"
and....

my heart called him......

after came back from the school, I wanna online, but my handphone got a bad signal, so I slept, till at 19.20 he sent me a message but I didn't realized it, till 10.30 T________________T
I'm so sorry, I just read it and he told me as usual before we went slept, so there's 2 messages from him ><
till I dreamed of u, that u sent me a message and asked me "tika, are u alright?" x)
it makes me woke up and open my cellphone....


today I'll going umroh, insya Allah I'll remember what should I say to Allah :)
and his order of pray ^^
iloveu

FUTURE

today our topic is :
the most important thing is
I'll take Sains Komunikasi & Pengembangan Masyarakat, S1
y Allah, mudah2an hamba diterima, amiin y Allah
mohon doanya yaah, moga2 diterima, n temen2 juga diterima d universitas yang diinginkan, amiin :)

Allahumma amiin y Allah ^^
SEMANGAT!

hahahhahahha

huuuh why yah, if I just met some or many :
there's so much people told me that from my face they think I still in JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOL !
how?why?

it's oqelahqalobegito, baby face, awet muda *amiiin*

*hahahahhahaha dodol* :P:P

__________________________________________________________________

today I've chat with him, he support me to cheer up ^^
aaa I love it when he said "Insya Allah, yes"
<3

I believe you :)

Mr. principal told us that we just believe, and keep pray, don't ever asked "can I?" that's mean we're not believe with ourselves.

so, that's mean LET LOVE LEAD THE WAY :D

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

wish me luck...

y Allah, hamba g boleh MANJA, harus RAJIN n MANDIRI

x)

semangatsemangatsemangat !!!
REACH THE BEST :)

Jaga Perasaan

I know that I'm a sensitive person, but I learn from it, bcause I know myself, so I tried to manage myself to be better and better, but I found out that there's my friend who don't care if someone dislike with her or not, how cool :D
I like it, in Indonesian we called "Cuek"
hahahaha I want this one I have in myself, but my principal said "be a CARE people"
well, but I'm so sensitive, I wanna throw it but I can't but there's a words "jadikan kekurangan itu adalah kelebihan"

how ya?

does it mean "sensitive" so there's a "care" ?
dear God, please help me, I know that You always gimme the best, and please, I wanna manage myself to be better than before ><

buuut the most important I wanna throw this one "LAZY"

--"

....................

kesel, g salah apa2 ko dikeselin?klo g suka NGOMONG !

PENGECUT!

he know

hahahahahha he asked me who's the person that I mean, on my post b4 :))
and that's true :P
lol

^^V

he know

hahahahahha he asked me who's the person that I mean, on my post b4 :))

^^V

:)

beruntung ya bagi mereka yang udah meraih kesuksesan, meraih apa yang diharapkan...

tika liat poto, jadi pacarnya yang perempuan ngasih surprise gitu ke yang laki2nya, so sweet banget deh, pacarnya dateng bawa kue n pas pacarnya lagu tidur SURPRISE ! hihihihi
how cute xD

Can I do like that? ><
I hope so...

......................

I feel cold tonight...
I think when I write this blog, he's sleeping ^^
sleep tight hun...


tonight. I do miss him...
everyday...
wish u always have a good day everyday :)


<3 u

:)

02-01-2010 6:24am

tika, wish u a good luck for ur UAS.
Semangat n have a gud day.

16-11-2009 11:41am

yupz, we are.

I <3 the way u smile
I <3 the way u talk
I <3 the way look at my heart

but, what I <3 the most is the way u love me with ur heart. :-*

12-11-2009 5:56am *at Indonesia

"if u feel lonely just look 2 d moon, u will feel that u are close 2 sum1 that u love"

he said

27-10-2009 11:06

<3 is the greatest feelin
<3 is what I feel 4 u each n everyday
<3 is like a song
<3 is a great feeling that keep us strong.
gud night n sweetdream sweetheart

<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3

x)

today

hufft I though that today will be a good day for me to see the good mark of my exams...
but the result...

I just got dissappointed of myself, I can't believe it!!!
hufft, what's wrong with me?
nyam, thank u my love, u give me ur support ^^
and also my mom told me, don't even give up :)

aaa i love you all <3
well, it's ok for me, I should be more study hard to get a good score, and I was cry to see my bad scoree huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I can't believe it, really I get mad of myself ><

CHEER UP TIKA :D

my happiness

I should posted this post yesterday, yeah just because I'm back home at 23.00, that's my time to sleep, so I decided to post this today :D
ok, what I want to tell u here is about :

in the aftanoon, my sweetheart sent me message told me that he met my brother and my cousins afta came back from kudu, so they gathered together and have fun --"
that's all makes me jealous, coz at that time I'm at school helped my sister
afta that my father and my sista asked me to go to batha nyam =3
to take a look the handphone that I want to :D
I'm in love with sony, so I wanna keep buy with sony's brand, well even tough they are made in China, it's ok if it has a good quality :D

so, after isya we went there together, and try to find the store with a good penjual :))
at last we met the good penjual, ramah and so on, I have 2 choice :

at first I wanna like Asa's cellphone :

and my sister was took a look in websites, there are 2 choice :

first :

 

i like it style, and it cost SR. 600, at first when I look by pic I like to, but when I hold it, I don't think so :D

and the 2nd : 

yeah this is my choice, my father also like it, but it cost SR. 1.150 with discount aka negotiation so SR.1.100, so when I took a look on it, I saw a bond of it :O

I told my father to buy it later, but....

my father just pay it at that time ><

my God, I was surprised, I can't believe it, and I told my father "ayah, tika bilang g usah, knp sekarang?tika g maksa ko, g usah aja yah, mahal"

but my father just smiled and said "gpp, kau kan mau ujian, tar kepikiran terus lagi"

and I said "engga ko, tika juga g terlalu berharap banget mw beli hp ini, kan bisa klo beli pas abis ujian, sebagai hadiah kelulusan"

well, sepanjang perjalanan nyari sayur dkk, tika dieeem aja, and all I can do is just took a look of it cellphone :') , really I am, dunno what to say, ayah baik banget, Alhamdulillah, tika bersyukur, tika dapet hp itu dengan mudahnya, gak nyampe 1 bulan tika mw hp ini, tapi udah dapet, y Allah, lagi2 rencana Allah itu indah....

tika mikir, ayah ngirim duit wat 2 k2 tika yang d indo, bayar rumah, bayar sekolah tika, belum lagi klo tika kuliah. 1000 klo wat hp lebih baik yang lain deh. tapi yah mw gmana lagi, my dad said :

"tika kan belum pernah dbeliin hp yang bener2 baru"

"pernah ko tu hp bunting, apa serinya lupa, 800 real"

padahal sebelumnya tika bilang, tika mw hp yang 400 ato 600 real aja deh, y Allah, makasi y Allah, alhamdulillah, tika mw nangis saat itu juga, tapi g bisa, malu juga tar orang2 batha pada ngeliatin bengong.

y Allah, sayangilah kedua ortu hamba, semoga dari k2 tika yang ptama ampe tika sukses semua, biar bisa membuat mereka tersenyum bahagia, dan membalas jasa2 mereka selama ini, amiiin :')

I love them y Allah x')

they always give me many supports...I don't know what will I be without them...

and you, my love, thank u for ur supports too, you fill my days....

y Allah, apa yang kurang dariMu?

I have my family, I have my parents

I have my lovely friends

I have someone who loves me

I can eat as I want

I can do what I want to

I can go to school and studying

Alhamdulillah y Allah T________T

y Allah, wish that people will feel the happiness like what I feel, amin :)

me and my heart

I don't understand with my heart, coz my heart sometimes said something that I don't want to  T__________T
that's makes me feel tired of myself, sometimes makes me wanna get it out, and think that I don't wanna keep this heart, I don't wanna have this heart....
but that's when my heart said something negative thing, astaghfirullaah
but I love my heart when my heart always said a positive thing, like thankful to Allah aand so on, when my heart was happy, when I'm in this situation, I wanna always keep my heart, and take care of my heart...

but I hate it when I can't control my heart to stop to said something the bad thing. like loss and out of control :(
really..

actually, I'm happy to be myself, and thankful to Allah ^^
alhamdulillah :)
I want people feel the happiness of this life, and actually, if I take a look of the people around me, there's so many things that I should be thankful to Allah, coz many people don't have what we have, but humans sometimes didn't realized it, and think that Allah's not loyal with them..nauzubillah ><
at the fact, we must be thankful :)
Allah's loyal with us, if we wanna get more of Allah's happiness, so we must be thankful more more and more, be more we always do it, Allah will more love us, more we love Allah, Allah will more more more more love us than our love to Allah :D

so, at last I should be thankful to have my heart :P
well even tough that sometimes I always have a debt with my heart and choose the things that I should or not. but that's how life's work *nyambung g si?*
nothing in this world are PERFECT
everything just need a process, everything always have a 2 sides, negative and positive, agree?

^^

happyhappyhappy

coz I had a sweet moment, that called "SWEETHEART" :)

............................................................

jealousy...

><

dunno why......

TT_______________________________TT

or

I know why, but I can't explain?

where's him?

tumben, today I didn't see him online, not like usual, where's him ya?

exam today

math, i like it but, I dislike that I can't find a way to reach the answer by myself ><
so I use my feeling, huaaa T___________T

I wanna use my way to find the answer but I can't, y Allah, how ya?

exam today

math, i like it but, I dislike that I can't find a way to reach the answer by myself ><
so I use my feeling, huaaa T___________T

I wanna use my way to find the answer but I can't, y Allah, how ya?

Ulangan Akhir Semester 1 :D

ahahahha mantap judulnya lengka, padat and JELAS :D
ok, this week I must study well for my final exams of this semester, and I must study well for national exams too, pray me x)

ok, today I feel well, alhamdulilah ^^
and after done exams today, I went to my cousin's house to see my Aisya, waa I miss her so much, and after miss miss an I wanna go home, so I called my father, I waited there till 1.40, when I realized that time was his time to going home xD
aaaahh I'm so happy, so I took a look the road, finding where the bus Al Rowad xD
and I pray, y Allah, please, I wanna see him, even tough only the bus, it's ok ><
and Allah answered my pray hihihi how glad, well I didn't see him, once again I just saw the bus, but I'M HAPPY <3

and after arrived at home, I kissed my mom, and so on, I laughed coz I bothered my mom while she played ZUMA's GAME hahahahha u know my mom have a good skill on it, I know for refreshing, so I made my mom scared, hoaaa c'mon mom there there *lil scream* makes my mother panic of her game =))

so, I take a photos of myself aka narsis xD
and look at my schedule for tomorrow are Agama Islam (Religion of Islam) and Math
humm now I know, I shouldn't dislike any subjects, at first, I hate math, physics, biology, chemistry, coz it's hard, but now I realized, if I hate them, I know it's always hard for me, so take it easy, and try to not dislike its ^^
when we already think it easy, insya Allah on the future we can pass them with easily, speacially to face them called UAN, so CHEER UP ^^

happy new year all :)

Y Allah, 2010 must be better than 2009, amiin :)
specially my prepare to face the national exam aka UAN, y Allah I wanna prepare it well so I can answer the exams amiiin ^^

Alhamdulillah, today's my mom birthday, wish u all the best mom, amiin ^^
y Allah berikanlah panjang umur untuk ibuku, sayangilah beliau, begitu juga ayahku
rabbi firli waliwalidayya warhamhuma kama rabbayani saghira, amiin..

I love them all, thank u mom and dad, they give me their love till now :')
y Allah, I wanna make them happy, and proud of me ><
and also proud of their children....

I'm happy that I pass the new year with him ^^
thank u <3
we pass the new year at Tasya's house with our friends, even tough that Fadil and Ryan wasn't here joined with us T___T