ternyata tak hanya aku

judul di atas pernah menjadi statusku di facebook beberapa minggu yang lalu *penting ya?*
engga ko hanya sekedar mau ditulisi dan bercerita, yo klo mau dibaca silakan, ndak juga ndak apa, ini juga hanya cerita harian aja ko *ga jelas

oke, tersirat?mungkin
banyak persepsi?pasti

tapi, disini yang dimaksud dengan tak hanya aku, pasti karena ada sesuatu kesamaan yang dirasakan oleh satu dengan yang lain
salah satunya perasaan sensitif.
waktu itu tika bercerita pada salah seorang teman tika, tentang apa yang tika rasakan jika sedan berhadapan dengan orang - orang sekitar, dari hal yang simple sampai hal yang besar
hal yang simple itu, misalnya tika menyapa orang, tapi tanggapan orang itu engga senyum aja

my heart would say "uh, did I do something wrong?what's wrong with him/her?" or "oh maybe he/she has something problem with themselves"

but, the truth is that's just a simple thing right?why I feel sensitive?why I feel I did something mistake?
I just feel that I can't control my heart....
dear God, would u mind teaching me how to control my heart?
I need it really....

be patience, I know, but it's not easy, even I tried to not thinking about that simple thing, but still I feel my heart won't stop talking and keep hinking about it, till that person changed like smiling, or say hi, or after that day she/he changed and show that they're fine

it's hard to be me

server down

sebel akhir - akhir ini server internet lagi down klo malem2
lagi enak - enak chatting tiba2 "tek"
effect sang pemilik
"UOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHH"

kesel kesel, lagi seru - serunya tuh
mati lagi, alhasil males chat, ngantuk, tidur =_____=
download juga lama engga seperti biasa, cepet langsung play

ku beranjak dewasa

"aku udah dewasa belum?" biasanya pertanyaan kecil itu muncul dari dalam diri, tapi klo dilontarkan ada jawaban seperti ini:
"menurut kamu gimana?" biasanya pertanyaan balik yang tersirat meminta introspeksi

dewasa memiliki banyak pengertian, ada dewasa menurut fisik, dewasa menurut pikiran
haho makin bingung bingung deh
oke, alasan kenapa tika saat ini nulis itu?
terinspirasi dari sepulang beli makan malam sama abang naik motor, pas lewat gaperi lampu jalanan samar, tika seperti biasa klo lagi suasana agak gelap liatnya ke langit, masya Allah bintang - bintang bertaburan bagus deh :)
tiba - tiba di kepala tika ngeplay lagu Sherina, tika lupa judulnya saat itu *karena sekarang udah searching google n download lagunya :P
hanya bagian beberapa lirik "bintang bertaburan, tanpa kecewa, amarah, prasangka, tuhan bimbinglah diriku"
sebenernya itu lagu udah lama pengen download, dari jaman SMP klo engga salah dengerin lagu itu di kaset punya temen hehehe
jadul tapi enak bangeeet
ternyata, lagu itu judulnya Sherina - Ku Beranjak Dewasa
here's the lyrics

Dimalam yang sunyi dan sesenyap ini

Dapatkah kumohon pada Yang Esa

Masihkah tampak manis raut wajahku

Masihkah seputih kapas dihatiku

Bilakah tak kukoyak mata hatiku

Oh mungkinkah

Begitu besarnya kasih-Mu untukku

Karunia dari-Mu setiap waktu

Tanpa-Mu tak kan indah jalan hidupku

Tanpa-Mu tak kan mudah nikmat rizki-Mu

Karena-Mu s’lalu bersyukur saat ini

Ku beranjak dewasa

Chorus:

Semoga hidup ini kulalui dengan hati

Yang seterang bintang-bintang indah bertaburan

Tanpa kecewa amarah, prasasangka oh.

Dan semoga selalu kujalani perintah-Mu

Tuhan bimbinglah diriku

Penuh kasih, Yang Maha Pengasih

Doaku selalu

Dimalam ini

change myself

changing myself it's not easy like flipping hand....
I know and I want to, by not choose other to see....
be miyself, changing myself as the way I am....

love again?

dear my blog...
in this year, this month..
I wanna tell you, that i'm falling in love
and I really like one of ronan keating song

"it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart, without saying a word, you can light up the dark" -When you say nothing at all-

I think, he don't know me yet, but I knew him already :)
I think, I'm not falling in love at the first sight, but, after met him more than twice, there is something happened..
I feel my heart's beating...

Deg deg deg
something like that

the way he looking at
the way he smile
the way he walk
the way he talk with his friends

but, one thing that I want most :

"I WANT TO HEAR HIS VOICES >,<"

dear God, will u able me and him to know each other ?


"Ready To Love Again"

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

Just when we think that love will never find you
You runaway but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that you can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again


STOP!!it just like a big fans u know =___=
hahhaha