Saturday, February 27, 2010

piano

my mom said to me "fokus sama 1 dulu, jangan banyak angan2, tanamkan itu dalam hati"
after I talked about piano, well I wanna learn how to play piano, really x)

I know we should focus at 1 side, my college, look at condition first...
mom said "bercita2 boleh"

y Allah, semoga ada rezeki untuk hamba menuntut ilmu x)
allahumma amiin y Allah, SEMANGAT !

humm my brother told me, klo piano yang senar sekitar 60jt-500jt !
kalo piano elektrik sekitar 6-20jt .... lumayan sih
klo guru les, ada yang 500rb/bulan....
tapi di jakarta deket blok M..

aduh, napa deh g di bogor aja? ;(
pengennya beli sendiri n belajar sendiri lewat internet...

y Allah...pengeeeennn T_____________________T

past....

once again, I'm so sorry about last nite...

I don't mean it, I just got shocked coz remembering my past...
I'm so sorry before...
when I read that u said "im fine with it"

here's my reason why I'm still shocked....
well, I ever asked him, do u have something that u don't like from me?just tell me honestly please
he said, nothin, I like it all
but...
when we already broke up, he said with reason that acceptable, but I still  feel that there's something he hide from me, about 6 months later I found it by myself, I got info, he don't like me coz I still like a kid...
that's mean he lie to me..
and I don't want it happen twice...
trauma... ><
after all this time, I wanna change myself, specially that one...
like too many barriers...

I don't want to remember about past, like what u said to me "don't look the past, just learn from it"
well, my teacher's right, it's easy to lie the others, but it's hard to lie ourselves...
I don't wanna lie people and myself....

Friday, February 26, 2010

like a kid

that words, i know it's hurt, my teacher told me "be honest even it's hurt, but in the future it will be good"

I wanna change, really but it's hard
he said it to me, I'm happy even I cry...
but it's ok, but is he honest to me?
he said he's ok with that...

no, he's not ok with it, I don't want it happen again like the past, NOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!

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where can I start to change it?
be silent?

maybe.....

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

:)

umm I can't explain what I feel now xD

the way my mom teach me

I love her, she always give me a spirit
when I'm sad bcause I got a bad mark, wish it wouldn't happen anymore, amiin

love u mom

Monday, February 22, 2010

minggu ini minggu ujian praktek, y ampun, jadwal tika jadi g keatur
pulang ke rumah, abis bimbel, kmaren pulang2 langsung mandi, cuaca naik turun , panas n dingin, temen2 dah pada mulai pilek, cepet sembuh ya semua, n moga2 tika g kena, amiiin *hehehehe ^^V*

jadi pas abis mandi, tika nonton bentar niatnya si nunggu rambut kering, terus tika bilang ke ayah
"yah, ternyata seger juga ya pulang2 mandi"
"iyalah, awas lho abis itu ngantuk"
terus pas mama bangun, tika liat kasur, aduh kayaknya enak deh guling2, eeeeeeeh bablas tidur =))
kbangun jam 12, liat hp, ada sms dari dia, y ampuuuuuuun langsung d tika bales, n pastinya dia dah tiduuurr ><

terus kjadian terulang smalem, tika tidur lagi jam 8 --"
bangun2 dah jam 1, bales langsung aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
k nana bilang
"tika, kasian tw dia, sms 2 hari ini, tika malah tidur"

T___________T maav...
why all I can do is just say sorry? :(

Thursday, February 18, 2010

waaaaaaaa i'm so happy now

becooozzz

5 more days left xD

about situation in my school now

wheew, klas 1 SMA bolong ! =))

i mean bcoz or school make a tangga darurat
nah terus kelas tersebut artinya dalam perbaikan, so dikunci, tapi ada tulisan

"MOHON UNTUK MASUK RUANGAN INI"

hahahahha mustinya ada tambahan setelah kata untuk, yaitu "TIDAK" :P:P

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

1 month

well I think 1 month left...
UN makin dekat, tika udah bicara sama ayah, kata ayah tika pulang ke indo awal april...
bareng k adi....

tika ke indo buat berjuang selama kurang lebih 3 tahun T______________________T
and I've been thinking about him and my future...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm gonna miss everything's here sooooooo muuccchh
my family, my live till now
Riyadh, even tough it's not my country, but I love Riyadh xD
I'm so thankful y Allah, this is all because of you so I can live till now, with my lovely parents, my lovely school

I always heard about people in Indonesia....

I'm gonna miss SHAWARMA xD
gonna miss ma school
gonna miss ma school day

EVERYTHING

specially him...
I'll be waitin u in Indonesia :')

JDUUSSHHH
balik ke waktu sekarang, OK UAN makin dekaaat hadapi dulu yang di dpan mata xD
y Allah, mudah2an hamba diterima di IPB sama Icha alias Siti Hafsah
y Allah, mudah2an hamba lulus UAN dengan nilai gemilang dengan DULASMANGKA dan anak2 kelas ujian yang lain y Allah
amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin allahumma amiiin y Allah x)

Saturday, February 13, 2010

the way he talk by message

by handphone I mean, when we've send a message to each other, klo boleh bilang sebeeeeeeeeell banget nget nget

abissaaan, when I talked much, but he only answered with simple thing
hih, I mean biar pulsanya g mubaziiirrr xD

Sunday, February 7, 2010

upset --"

well, there's sum1 in fesbuk that I've been upset with coz he's ga jelas gitu deh, ngirim2 message g jelas --"
pengen delete, salah
pengen ngomong langsung n bilang "tolong ya, jangan bilang gitu, tika ngerasa diganggu", tersinggung tar n salah, n tar dibilang sombong, huuuuuuuuuuuuuuh

tika ngerasa serba salah deh, dia ngomong, tika jawab baik2, eeehh malah kayak ngelunjak !
KESEL AH

nanya si boleh2 aja, tapi tolong dah bahasanya --"
tu orang klo makin jadi2 ngirim message ga jelas I'll DELETE him, or should I tell him that I dislike with what he do?
tu orang kesannya ALAY gitu
X(

Friday, February 5, 2010

have a bad day and a bad time

well dunno why maybe I'm too tired, so I came back at home after ashar, I wanna ol with him, but bcause my sister still using this laptop, so I decide to waiting 4 her, but it's too loooooooooooooongg T____________T

till I got tired so I went slept, and when I'm sleeping, my mother's friend call to my handphone, errgghh I gave it to my mom and continued my sleeping, it's bad --"

till about 1.30 am, he sent me a message, and at that time I realized "MY GOD I'VE BEEN SLEPT TILL NOW????"

i'm so sorry T_______T


skrang jam 05.03 pagi, mw tidur tapi pusing, mual ><
my body is not delicious => gak enak badan =))

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

at least xD

well today's the end of try out part 2, there's still 2 lefts of TO nyam =3

I'm so sorry to my special one hihihihihi well tought that I've confuse what should I post about :D:D