The meeting

Terkadang ketika minta dipertemukan dengan seseorang untuk sekali itu saja, namun dipertemukan dengan yang lain

Mungkin ekspektasi awal berfikir, oh mungkin Allah tidak mengabulkan...

Namun ternyata ekspektasi kedua muncul, ah bukan itu, Allah tak ingin sekali itu saja untuk berdoa, malah sebaliknya, Allah sangat senang ketika doa yang sama untuk diucapkan berkali kali sampai dijawab pada waktunya...

Kali Kedua

Cukup sekali saja

Aku pernah merasa

Betapa menyiksa 

Kehilanganmu

Kau tak terganti

Kau yang selalu kunanti

Takkan kulepas lagi

Pegang tanganku

Bersama jatuh cinta

Kali kedua, pada yang sama...

Sama indahnya...

(Raisa bilang kali kedua, namun aku merasa lebih dari itu)

When life gives you apple, ask for cinnamon

This year I learned a lot, specially about how to be thankful, and more than that Allah show me how to feel pain, ah this one I dont want to actually, if I have to choose between decline and accept, I'd like to choose the first one!

Been tried to telling myself that was part of life, if I never been there then how did I know what it feels like to be in pain...

if it's not okay then it's not the end....

Allah, I know you give me lemon right now, so can I ask for mint?or soda?so they both can give some freshness in my life, tee hee

Hmph then hi

Never been in love before to dates

These 3 years I've found myself for liking things I've never liked before, such as caramel, dates, chocolate, strawberry

For some moments I really into them, as if God wants to show me that's the life rules, basically the earth shaped shows us, life is round, sometimes up and down, today we may dislike something, and turned into like too much.

Nah there are more, political and business, I dont know why they are both gives high impact to the countries, but personally they're sounds not peaceful 😂😂😂

Lots of conflict there...ah or maybe one day I'll put my interest there?

Soda can't befriended with chocolate

My 3rd elder brother loves soda

And I'm sad

Bcause I know it's not good for him

I wanna give him loads of chocolate every single day, so he only thinks to drink water

Bcause chocolate doesn't match with soda hahahahaha

R e l a t i o n

We may don't know where our luck, sustenance comes through, sometimes it comes out from unexpected person, or people that we loves...

We just have to build the best relation with people in our lives, unexpected person could be someone who you dislike, something out of mind that never thought once, how can?

But again that is how God create life, sometimes when we hate something but in God eyes it's best for us

Don't hate too much, don't love too much

They said everything that too much won't be good for us

Let's live happily then, stay positive even life might bring us up and down

Life is a choice, that's mean God give us specialty of freedom, I don't know why I feel like I still wanna all happening bcause of qadarullah...

As if I don't wanna make mistakes for choosing one of the choices... 

Thankful

Indeed life is up and down, whatever it takes I always ended up back to think about Allah

When I have to face the negative things in life, I have no other choice than to think positively, what's behind this all, then I give back to Allah

Ah I forgot that I'm the one who asked Allah that anything matters may Allah wont give me any way to think negative or suudzon to Him

Now Allah granted my wish...All praises to Allah

I opened back my old diary, and read them, I've found out I started to looking about Allah since 2nd elementary school, whoa now I'm thankful to Allah that He sends me to these angels and I called them Mom and Dad ❤️

S o l u t i o n

Whenever I found myself in uncomfortably, I just lying in the bed, be busy thought, all around my mind, think of God's plan for me then be positive, simple thing can clearing my mind at the time

No, I dont have any problem, seems I can handle it all, I have God and because of God I can keep going

But they said the problem is in your mind

Dont care what people might say about you, the sky never tell us that its high, bcause people know you good if you good

Ramadhan Mubarak

Alhamdulillah meet again with Ramadhan's month, I learned from previous Ramadhan last year, but it was precious time, where it all starts until I am now...

The time where I was confused which one should I choose between two things, argh so much thought in my minds

Ramadhan Kareem everyone!

I have to do

Life is a choice, they said

I'm sure that every people in this world ever had to choose in between 2 or 3 things or even more 

So do I, never thought that everything's come without God's permission, and also reason behind it all

Everything I asked to Allah, its all need patience for the right time, never too late nor too soon 

But, when Allah answer every single prayer, don't you feel afraid you might forget and disobey for what He asked you to do, because too much enjoying for everything you have... And become negligent Oh nauzubillah

Go get yourself together, or you might got it bcause you deserve to get them all

Be thankful, and still low profile....

Send it

There are times when you might just type and send without thinking how the receiver might feel about you

It's happen just because you just write as how the idea comes out without meaning anything, as if you didnt write now you might lose it at the moment 

Duh...

The one who might understand are the closest people to ya

Something new

It's good when we're about to improve ourselves through gain knowledge, get a job, find a new experience in life, take a journey through travelling, etc

I read some comment about life, they said we did that so to make ourselves busy, just to fill our free time before salah/prayer time

In my opinion, that in the end life is all about us and God, I shared to my cousin, then she said "God didnt control our life, it's a good deed that Allah give, of course Allah controlled our earnings, fortune etc but not what we're gonna do. In the end, if Allah controls that, He may asked Himself, so what we do is our responsibility, and Allah will ask for what have we done in this world"

Now, I asked myself why I did something to fill my free time with taking a course of Arabic n English language, continuing to college here, and also got a job, well I love new experiences, and I hate when I got to say "nothin to do" it may bring back the memories back then, it's good when it's about good things that I've done, but if it's something embarrassing things I'll be like OMG help me to forget bout this things by make me really happy till I forgot bout it all!!!

Just like in the end of the last year....

I dont want to remember, it's just make me sad, down, depressed, I even think that I dislike myself...

I even think why I have this way, and what's the good things behind this all, I hate if in the end I'll be like blame this to God, oh Nauzubillah....

I seek for forgiveness God!

Phew I think it's been long time I didn't tell the stories, I just feel relieved if I write here, OMG the problem that I don't like reading, I prefer scanning, scamming than reading by details...ergh I know we gotta get a lot of new information, but of course I like reading newspapers, I mean here a book, such a ...well you know what I mean...

On the day like this

Not all the things should be explained

Some of them we'll figure it out or known by time will answer

That's why when parents told us "one day you'll understand"

We often asked for something that so curious about, till we know by ourselves

A withered flower

They said that life can be up and down

Life isn't always happened as expected

At the moment where we enjoyed our life between us and God, then be gratefully and the universe that smile brightly

At the moment where suddenly we didn't enjoyed the moment that we have now

Happens for a reason

There are rainbow after the rain 

There are happiness after the sadness 

There are always two sides of life's 

There are bunches of new flowers that blooms after the withered

There are times when

There are times when the logic must win

There are times when to not to speak more

There are times when the time will answer

There are times when it's time to understand

There are times when good and bad things comes up together in a day

There are times when ...

All about You

Makin pasrah sama Allah itu menyenangkan, apalagi tiap ketemu hal2 negatif di sekitar yang bisa memunculkan kekhawatiran, dan kalimat andalan yang bisa dibilang anti-worried, dimana tiap mengucap kata itu di dalam hati langsung lega, rasa khawatir itu seakan ditendang keluar "get out" adalah "ah ada Allah ini" atau "ah ga ada yang kebetulan ini"

Terlebih doa doa kecil yang langsung dikabulkan, ketika bisa mensyukuri dan merasa sangat berarti semisal dari hal makanan, mungkin bagi kita biasa aja, but who knows di mata Allah, hambaKu dikasih rejeki segitu mampu bersyukur, bagaimana jika Kuberi lebih?

So all good things are worth waiting for, memang berdasarkan pengalaman pribadi when it turns about the bigger thing that I asked, it must be longer for waiting, at the end it just the matters of time...

I do really curious what will happen next, maybe if I asked "ya Allah, what's your next plan for me?I may dont know yet because tomorrow's mystery, but if I can ask, may You make my life better than today" I believe at the same time Allah's smiling at me and say "You will be happy if You know what I've prepared for you"

Maybe I cried today, or maybe I nagged and can't accept the truth, but I believe one day I'll laugh to my past

One thing that make me tired is I have to deal between the logic and the heart that what it wants, the ego, the logic says "Cmon Tika, you just have to accept the truth!" The two different things called "you've think too much"

Resume of 2015

Allah itu so sweet

Allah itu listening for every single prayer

Allah itu for sincerity are Allah's most favorite

Indeed!!!

So, what's about the year of 2015?

Okay this year I experience the most about the process, specially about du'a, actually started to realized it on last October 2014, I asked once how lucky if I can sit on cockpit, then Allah answered right before I performed hajj

Then about two months ago, when I'm very hungry I asked Allah that I wanna eat meat with teriyaki sauce, rendang, something with meat as the main dish, the Allah answered alsoo!! So many things if I flashed back, I should have been more thankful n grateful for what Allah has given to me...

O Allah I seek for forgiveness... 

It's all about believe, n how beautiful that the universe also helpin out to make dreams come true, aanndd specially when it turns out to the one we called "destiny" thing happened, then we'll be like oh it's happened by coincidence #blushing

But in the end I realized that there's nothing happened coincidence, it's just how we face it and think how to deal with it in positive ways..

Yes, just tell Allah, tell Allah everything for what you've been through, what you want, I learn one thing to be patience. Because it's just the matter of time...

So now, I look forward for another gifts from Allah on next year of 2016th!

Thank you Allah n alhamdulillah for every gifts that You've given in 2015th, You wrapped up for every single gift very beautiful

The rainbow that appears after the rain

Terkadang, menyemangati diri sendiri itu tidaklah mudah...
Sigh...

Ketika mampu menggeserkan, menghilangkan rasa gelisah, serta merta beban dalam pikiran terlepas, sangatlah melegakan...

Namun ketika yang terjadi adalah sebaliknya, alias ngga mempan, OMG...

Udah kayak kebal aja, ga ngefek, actually hate this situation, no I don't blame no one but myself, such disaster if it hits right to the mind, I can't sleep properly (can't bear this one)!!!

"If it's not okay then it's not the end"

Hiks still can't make me feel much better :'(

Rindu hari2 yang lalu yang bisa dilalui dengan sangat menyenangkan, bahkan enjoy sangat...

"namanya juga kan hidup, berputar, ada naik dan turun"

Tapi...tapi...

"badai pasti berlalu"

De Javu

Once again it happened on Friday, never know what will happen next, and for every sign from the nature that He give, but still will never get it until it happened

Same occasion, different people

At least, I learn from it

It's okay

Allah never sleeps, whenever I feel down, sad, an trying to put back all my courage...
That's when Allah gives the happiness...
Allah changes my sadness...

Even the smallest thing...

Just like lately I feel down, deeply, I wanna cry but I can't, suddenly Allah gives me something that its such a bunch of gift!I know it's just a small thing but dunno for me it's sooo special...

Just like one of Al Insyirah's ayah "fainnama'al 'usri yusran" there's a convenient after the difficulty...

One of my colleague told me "Allah not always give what you want at the same time, it's just matter of time"

Suddenly I feel much better after heard that...
Thanks